Friday, April 10, 2015
And you discovered
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
My Women Wonder
Riti & Aditi
They are my sunshine
They ensure I don't whine
Even if I'm not enjoying that glass of wine
When we are together
I can never feel under the weather
Even if I'm off the tether
We crack at the silliest of jokes
And for any ordinary folks
We would appear as three demented blokes
Those endless conversations over cups of coffee
Give me so much of joy and glee
And together we shall ever be....
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Track worthy
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I've come to realize...

I've come to realize that my hair: is slowly turning wavy
I've come to realize that when I talk: I can't stop
I've come to realize that, when I love someone: they could love me back even more
I've come to realize that I need: to start writing more often
I've come to realize that I've lost: nothing worth losing
I've come to realize that I hate it when: people lie
I've come to realize that money: comes to those who invite it over
I've come to realize that people: are basically good
I've come to realize that I love spending my time with: friends, family, Facebook, flora & fauna
I've come to realize that the last time I cried I was: mourning my hamster Wanda
I've come to realize that my cell phone is: the coolest gadget I've ever owned
I've come to realize that my friends are: my lifeline
I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night:I kiss Alkins goodnight
I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: what a wonderful life this is
I've come to realize that I worry about ________ less than I should: Arusha
I've come to realize that tonight I will: hobnob with FB, read The Sunset Club, and turn in with thoughts of gratitude.
I've come to realize that I'll never be: nasty to anyone, ever
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
2010: Gratitude & Gratification and how!
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
An Afterword of Sorts...
Or is it a preface, to yet another beginning.
You see the muse is back, or so I shall assume. :o))
Thanks to Alok for gifting me a Compaq Presario, makes it so much more easier I guess.
So on that note, I'll start by doing an afterword to my entry dated March 2006 :
My Wishlist of March 2006
1. Go parasailing, snorkeling and river rafting
2. Write religiously, unfailingly everyday
3. Lie back on a hammock by the beach and read, read and read
4. Live by the sea/ocean
5. Contribute towards making a little more difference in the lives of the unprivileged
6. Keep a pet turtle, a robin, a squirrel and a cocker spaniel
7. Spend more time with nature-watching penguins waddle and woodpeckers at work
8. Last but never the least, spend quality time with my lovely family-Alok & Arusha
So here we go:
1. Go parasailing, snorkeling and river rafting
###Hmmmm...I didn't go parasailing, I didn't go river rafting either, but yes! I did go Snorkelling and Scuba Diving. And Scuba sure walks away with the laurels.
Spent a cosy New Year with Alok and Arusha at Aniloy, in Batangas, Philippines and we wraped the year 2006 with a dive and welcomed in 2007 with another. Sheer bliss!!
People, you have to experience a dive to believe how awe-inspiring and breathtakingly beautiful it is as you plunge into the gorgeous depths of the deep, dark yet so very divine sea. Who wants to go to heaven, when god already gifted us a readymade one, right here on Mother Earth!
It all actually started with a Snorkelling experience at the Bohol islands, our wondorous Haloween getaway. Alok and I went snorkelling thrice at Bohol, and still craved for more of the sea, and it's calming effects and most importantly it's amazingly wonderful creatures. That is yet another anecdote that needs extensive elaboration-in yet another post!
Then Aniloy happened; as we were winding up the year, thanks to Arnel, better known as AA; our travel agent friend who sent us to Bohol. Even little Arusha all of 8 plunged into a 15 feet dive! Alok and I were taken by the deft dive master for a 30 feet dive, the first time on, and then the New Year propelled us 45 feet down under. The most incredible experience during my dive was, when the puffer fish blew up at me into a big balloon, as I tried mollycoddling it to become my friend. Fortunately, the Jelly fish spared Alok this time on, except for one odd sting. (He had managed to get stung by many at Bohol you see!). They seem to stay away from me-maybe they like me a tad more. But Alok was amazing on his first dive. The dive master didn't have to guide him through-he dived mostly on his own, very much like the snorkel at Bohol; where I thought he had mastered the sea in his own ways.
If you are thinking of "Finding Nemo" make sure you go for a dive. The clown fish, or Nemo, the name we know the species by; is all over the place savagely protecting the Sea Anemone-one incredible symbiotic relationship. The clown fish lives in the mesh of the anemone.
My next dive was without Alok, as much as I wish he was there. He would have savoured this experience, just the way I did. This part of Aniloy was more picturesque than the earlier one. The reef homes a plethora of sea creatures. Rachelle a friend and an ace diver took Arusha and me there. What an incredible experience that was! Words wouldn't suffice to describe the beauty I was beholding, in the deep realms of the gigantic sea. There were shoals and shoals of fishes around us-maybe 100s of different varieties per shoal. These eclectic beauties would put the prettiest woman on earth to shame. The grace with which they navigate the sea and twirl around as a team is worth mentioning here. I couldn't help but notice their team spirit. Completely applaudable.
Yet another worthwhile experience during the dive was, feeding them. They all trouped and clamoured to catch the biggest bite, some straight out of my fingers. At one given point of time I thought they'd cover me into their warm envelop, like a fish jacket of some kind. If there was one!
Later as I traversed further I played tease to one pretty sleek thing, trying to finger and play a frivolous game of sorts and she or was it a he; almost threatened to bite my finger off in digust. Her big black eyes still haunt me! My third dive lasted over 45 minutes to an hour, by then I was beginning to even shiver in my wet suit (the dive suit, as it is called). But one part of me was thirsting for more. But since rules are rules and an intro dive only lasts 30 minutes, but thanks to Rachelle we got away with a longer duration; I had no other choice but to relent and come back to shore, to a sumptious Filippino cuisine.
2. Write religiously, unfailingly everyday
## No prizes for guessing I didn't stick to that one! But hope is the beginning and so is the muse. Will continue to give this wishlist my best shot.
3. Lie back on a hammock by the beach and read, read and read
## Haven't been lying on that hammock by the beach and reading, but have spent some very treasured moments by the beach, so what if I was just making sand castles, instead of reading.
But I did manage to get back to my reading in 2007, though minus the hammock! Have read some of the most incredible books- both Khaled Hosseni's gems-Kite Runner & A Thousand Splendid Suns, Sydney Poiter's -Spiritual Autobiography, Suketu Mehta's- Maximum City and many, many more.
4. Live by the sea/ocean
## We don't yet own that tiny little cottage by the sea, but we live in a place which is actually close to being our “tip of the iceberg”. We live on an 8th floor apartment that overlooks a tiny patch of sea, a n eagle's eye view; closeted between the TNT office and a management institute. The Singapore nights usher in a breathtaking view of the glimmering lights from the ships docked by the shore, recreating a Diwali of some sorts.. And the sea breeze spares no single moment in ruffling our senses and filling our home with it's crispy fragrance and sending our windchimes into a rather tinkling Sea Salsa, of some genre.
5. Contribute towards making a little more difference in the lives of the unprivileged-
## Partly achieved, so I would like to believe; from the 52 episodes of Radio Programmes I worked on in my prior job, and which are being aired on AIR and have recieved a very heart warming response from it's audience and are slated for a repeat telecast. These programmes are designed to drive home the importance of Health messages to the rural audience of UP, the Northern state of India. But, very much like Mr Frost... I have miles to go before I sleep, and would like to keep the efforts ongoing, unfailingly.
6. Keep a pet turtle, a robin, a squirrel and a cocker spaniel
## Yes we had two very lovely turtles- Bertie and Turtie, back in Manila. But had to give them away, given the emargo constraints. Now they live happily in a tank at our Scuba friend, Rachelle's place in Manila. A robin looks unlikely and so does a squirrel now, but yes a doggie might happen someday- though I am not sure if it will be a cocker spaniel, as I've taken a prediliction for other breeds like Pug, Shiatsu etc. Someday!! Hmmmmmmm...:o)
7. Spend more time with nature-watching penguins waddle and woodpeckers at work-
## We managed to do parts of that on our holidays to Bohol and Aniloy, in Philippines, and quite recently at the Singapore zoo; which really is remarkable. Just that have to figure out more ways to catch the Penguins waddling or doing a Happy Feet jig!!
8. Last but never the least, spend quality time with my lovely family-Alok & Arusha-
## Yes, three of us have been doing lots of that since we again got back together after our transit in May'07, and prior to that while in Manila, and yes, there's more to come. And me thinks, the time and moments spent with family are one of the most gratifying experiences life has to offer.
Life really is beautiful. And I am greatful to the guy up there, who is very generous. It warms the cockles of my heart to say that I managed to fulfill a major chunk of my 2006 wishlist, if not all of it. Thank you dear God Almighty!
Someone rightly said, “You just have to believe and you can.” And kudos to the Addidas sign off that proudly proclaims “Impossible is nothing”.
You bet!!
So I continue to dream...
Friday, September 08, 2006
OBKEK
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Abhishek is the kid brother I never had.
As I rewind back to the muggy monsoon of 2004, memories of Abhishek and I sharing a raucous laugh on the dilemmas of life; ring true.
It was one of those days when Abhishek had come home from his break. He was doing his MBA at Hyderabad and simultaneously also working with a call centre. We were catching up on old and new times, alike.
He excitedly told me, “Didi I bagged the best employee award”
I was so proud of O.B.K.E.K (pronounced OB-Cake); that’s what I call him.
He was born when I was a little over 7 years old. Still remember the first time when Leena Aunty put him on my lap. There I was flaunting this brand new dress in celebration of his birth and to my horror that-wet-something trickled all over me, making it a day surely to remember.
Abhishek and I grew up together. Literally!
We spent many an evenings watching Sharukh Khan’s first serial “Fauji” and I’d clap in glee when he would emulate the title track with much style. The heart warming smile that flashed thereafter would make me want to spoil him silly. Yet we also had our share of quarrels on who had wacked who’s DC Comic, Target or Tin Tin.
I remember the first time I shifted to Delhi, he pillion drove me across the city, and we went about scrutinizing a decent place for me to stay. I was happy to see he was a steady driver. Well he had his head screwed firmly on his shoulders and that’s what made all of us so proud of him.
That July evening as we both sat catching up on the “latest”, he told me with a rather beetroot blush that he had fallen in love. And he somehow knew that this was it! But life has a way of throwing up unique ironies. The girl in question was getting engaged in the next few days to a techie in the USA. He looked at me with those intense eyes which suddenly seem to grow sad but in a haste lit up. He flashed that warm smile and said, “That’s ok Didi, I have shared the best moments in life with her, and I guess I am not up there like her would-be-husband. I am still studying. I guess she’ll be happy with what her family has planned for her.”
I held his hand and reassured him, “Listen Bro, if destiny wants the two of you to be together, so you shall be. For all you know, next year this time you'll be telling me she’s yours!”
He smiled back again; that confident and in control smile and said,
“Que Sera Sera…I am very happy with life, no regrets, no complaints.”
And yes he looked genuinely happy as he gorged on his favourite chicken curry my Ma had prepared for him with piping hot parathas. He completely loved the vanilla ice-cream topped with the mango chunks and told my Dad, “Wow, Jethu! I’ve never tried this dessert combo. It’s lip- smacking!!”
The next day, Abhishek left for Pantnagar, near Nainital; to go spend time with his mother. He was driving and was accompanied with his father. Their car was hit by a truck; and the ebullient life ebbed out of him in a jiffy. His father survived the crash, but Abhishek was gone…leaving behind a void in our lives, forever.
The next few days were the most traumatic; I have ever known. It was the first time I had seen someone so close to me falling prey to the cruel hands of death. A young, energetic, vivacious and caring life; would touch us no more.
Three days later we stood at the doors of the small Kaali temple, ready to leave; after Abhishek’s prayer service; and it began to drizzle.
I quickly escorted Leena Aunty and Kaku (Abhishek’s Ma & Dad) and my parents into the car; strapped the safety belt as Kaku fumbled softly, “Drive carefully beta”. The light pitter patter continued as I revved up the car engine.
My soul was crying; “Was Abhishek crying too?” I quizzically thought to myself.
Barely had we crossed ผ of a km there were no signs of the rain. On the contrary the sun was shining brightly. Was it Abhishek bidding us adieu and telling us he was fine.
And that he would forever smile upon us.
-Natasha
December 2, 2005
Thursday, July 27, 2006
Purple Rain
And the winds begin to howl,
Smiles melt into tear drops
And mingle into painful sobs
The hovering deep, dark clouds;
Raindrops pelting sting by sting
Every core, every inch
A painful inoculation,
To break the seed of understanding
And heal the soul within
Sunday, March 05, 2006
My Wishlist:)
2. Write religiously, unfailingly everyday
3. Lie back on a hammock by the beach and read, read and read
4. Live by the sea/ocean
5. Contribute towards making a little more difference in the lives of the unprivileged
6. Keep a pet turtle, a robin, a squirrel and a cocker spaniel
7. Spend more time with nature-watching penguins waddle and woodpeckers at work
8. Last but never the least, spend quality time with my lovely family-Alok & Arusha
Thursday, October 27, 2005
Long, languorous walks by Chastity woods,
Frolicking winds and froggy hoods
Walking hand in hand,
Peering at the verdant land
Inhaling the whiff of crisp spring leaves,
Laughing about our pet peeves
Nuzzling up to a sweet banter,
Whimsical emotions stealthily saunter
Gazing at her hazel eyes,
Startled by a parakeet's cacophonic cries
Rebuking the intruder with frivolous bamboozle,
Longing eyes that continue the carousal
Give in to the patch of green,
Regaling in our new found love’s sheen
Chastity woods is all so pure,
Another redolent love gives into its lure
-Natasha
March 2005
Mumbai
Friday, August 05, 2005
And it Rains...
in all their fury
Your words rained on me incessantly.
Scathing, scalding and shattering
the sheer foundation
of my being
Your words rained on me incessantly.
Engulfing my taut skin-
hurling sting after sting
Shaking the sheer foundation
of my being
Your words rained on me incessantly.
Booming like a cloud burst–
thundering and overpowering
Devastating the sheer foundation
of my being
Your words rained on me incessantly.
Uncoiling their serpentine fang-
spewing venom
Ebbing the sheer foundation
of my being
Your words rained on me incessantly.
Groping out into the darkness,
grappling with my destiny;
A steady hand reached out to me…
As your words rained incessantly on me.
Healing my septic soul
with a mere touch-
Soothing my wilting spirits;
And dissolving the fears
festering within;
Calming the sheer foundation
of my being
As it went on to rain incessantly within me.
Annihilating the scars,
your words left behind–
Burying them into the grave
of the past
As it went on to rain incessantly within me.
The Seraph of my Life-
now guides and directs me
Stirring the sheer lightness
of my being –
Showering and loving me
As it continues to rain incessantly within me
...like never before.
(c) Natasha
5 August 2005
Thursday, August 04, 2005
~Cosmicrain~
bursts
into a pitter- patter dance
Enchanting the mogra
into
a magical trance
The parched gulnar
sways
to a lilting tune
The dusty haze, now
enshrines
a crystal rainbow
Glistening across
our
hypnotic horizon
(c) Natasha
July 2005
~Desolate~
rents the air
A vacuous cry,
berates the sky
A lone robin
stares,
as the last drop
falls prey;
to a land
that reverberates,
to a death knell
(c) Natasha
20 June 2005
Death?
death- knell,
sounded off
by you
Was just
another awakening,
for us
to start anew”
(c) Natasha
4 August 2005
Silence
my soul
learnt
to speak wise
In the aura of silence
my soul
found
the path to light”
(c) Natasha
4 August 2005
Thursday, May 05, 2005
~~Words~~
Words could play hide and seek
Too wary, too meek
Lest the unheard speak
Words could create a commotion
Dispelling unfathomable notions
Giving way to random thought potions
Words could slash like a knife
Creating much pain and strife
Spreading bitterness all around life
Words could simply propel smiles
Changing the course of many a lives
Leaving their imprints in mind’s archives
- Natasha
23 February 2005
Friday, April 08, 2005
~~Spring~~
Oh! Spring, spring,
What shall you bring?
Wispy clouds with silver linings
Balmy breeze that seem to be dancing
A cuckoo bird flapping its wings
Melancholic hearts that sing
Riot of colours suddenly bursting
Frolicking souls giving in
A star spangled night whispering
Many a hearts entwining
Little daisies simply smiling
Yet another new beginning
-Natasha
22:40 hours
16 February 2005
~~That’s My Spring~~
Spring, spring
Why do you want to hide
That’s how the flowers cried
The cold winter made us sad
The summer will make us happy
Why don’t you make us flower
Why are you so far
Come to us with your power
Surround us with your love & care
So we shall say a prayer
Spring we want you everywhere
-Arusha (my angel brat)
22:40 hours
16 February 2005
~~Pain~~
Does my heart wrench
Why does my soul drench
In your thoughts
Why does the chasm
Widen
Why does this ache
Only sadden
My heart
Why
Does the pain only grow
Why cant it just slow
Why do I need you so
That each moment passes
And the ache only surpasses
With the boundaries of time
Why does this pain
Inflame
Kneading,
Throbbing,
Hammering
My heart
Like a fire dart
Why
Do I ache
To be by your side
To soak in your love
To be held in your arms
Or to just have you around
Why
Cant I just tide
Or simply hide
My feelings
Inundate my mind
With our memories
Frozen in time
Natasha
8 April 2005
Thursday, April 07, 2005
~~Conflicting Souls~~
Refuse
To console
Like jagged edges
Of a knife
The clashing hearts
Create more strife
My heart bleeds
In Pain
Am I going
Insane?
Are these
Tears just
In vain?
Why do those
Words cut?
Why does the
Distance hurt?
Why cant the
Pain depart?
Why cant
We make a
Brand new start?
Why do we
Let the miles
Come in between?
Why can’t we smile?
And make it worthwhile?
You said
I am precious
So why get sucked?
In this vicious
Conflict game?
For chrissake
We shall not fake
Just tame
This moment
Work through
This intricate maze
And clear the haze
And simply make up
For each other’s sake
Coz this love is
Something we shall
Never forsake
-Natasha
29 March 2005
~~Six Days hence, Coffee in the Present Tense~~
You & I
Will
Simply Sense
That time
And tide
Just make
No sense
Coz the
Coffee
We share
In the
Present tense
Is all
That makes sense
Coz Six days hence
And Coffee in the
Present Tense
Are meant to
Simply
Fill up
Our sense
And our lives
Together till the end
-Al & Natasha
18 March 2005